Hiya
I must be honest, it's only recently that I've been eating like I've written about in my blog. I am a pig and I do eat what I like, but since the start of this year I've eaten like there's no tommorow and every day I seem to pack away more and more food. I actually ate EVERYTHING in the house yesterday. I ate all my snacks which was 3 brownies, a muffin and a pack of 4 mars bars, not to mention all my crisps I don't even know how many of those I ate. I had 2 tins of soup out of the cupboard, I had 12 eggybreads (Yes! 12!) and used up all the flour and sugar making pancakes and a cake (which I ate ALL of on my own!). I ate all the bread with sandwiches and toast (and my eggybreads of course), I had all the cocopops and all the shreddies AND all the weetabix. I finished those off with a full 4 pint bottle of milk and whatever was left in the other bottle (which was quite a lot). Then I had the 6 yogerts in the fridge. I ate a tin of buscuits and I had all the good ones out of my mum's quality street. Then I went out before my mum came home and had a go.
I went to macdonalds but I was way too full to manage much so I just had a double cheeseburger, fries and a milkshake. Then I met up with Sue and Sarah and got completeley wasted and ended up buying loads of chips, fish and suasages. Then we got even more drunk and I had a kebab and I remember eating so much I was sick, although to be fair the drink probably helped. I lost Sarah and Sue somewhere along the line but I think they may have been too embarrased to be seen with me.
I got a taxi home and my mum had such a go at me. My dad was pretty pissed off as well. I mean I finished off about £50 worth of food, maybe more, and I didn't even want to, I felt sickeningly full all day but I kept eating and I don't really remember why. My head's clearer today but I can't understand why I ate so much yesterday. I pretty much ate without stopping for the entire day. My stomach has hurt all day from the booze and the vomiting and probably from the abuse I gave it all day yesterday.
I don't know what to do, my eating is uncontrollable. I don't even think I want to do anything, to be honest it felt so amazing having my stomach full to bursting all day and still eating. I don't feel like eating at all today, my stomach is in agony and when I tried to eat some cereal (my mum went shopping, bless her) I felt like I was going to be sick for a few hours (I wasn't luckily!), so I'm going to make this a day to avoid food and see how I feel.
You must all think I'm crazy now, and yeah there's plenty wrong with me but I'm not changing lol.
Bubi for now.
Ali,
ReplyDeleteYou sound beautiful! Im older (33) but at 5'5" I have finally crossed the 400lb mark & am at 412lbs right now. I eat like you do -Im a major food addict and even have to keeo a stahs of stuff by my bed in case I wake up during the night. And I probably eat more in one day than most people do in 3-4 days easily. Its non-stop, 24/7 for me. And as a result, I have a 74" belly standing, & when I sit it hangs over the edges of my knees. Try to take it sort of slow if you can though - I have gained so much fat that my belly has become enormous - so heavy it hangs halfway down my thighs & I am actually using a cane now to help me waddle, because the belly starts swaying & throws my balance off. I LOVE being extremely fat, but just remember it does have its compications too - after 3o feet of walking I am totally out of breath, and I can no longer sleep on my back with all this fat or I cannot breathe. So keep all this in mind but have fun. Just don't rush yourself. And by the way, theres nothing wrong with eating a lot - it's the only way to such a gorgeous, "fluffy" body!
Big Fat Hugs,
Angela