My Poor Belly :P

Thought you might like to know, I looked back on today when I posted the last entry a minute ago.

Today I've eaten:

4 eggybreads

6 sausages

a tin of spaghetti hoops

a bowl of crunchy nut corn flakes with a banana

a bowl of 3 weetabix

a pasty

a ham and salad sandwich

a blueberry muffin

a snickers bar

a rustler's cheeseburger

a fudge cake

a chocolate brownie

a mint cornetto

2 and a half helpings of spaghetti bolognase

4 slices of banana cake, 1 with ice cream 2 with cream

a chicken wrap

a chicken sandwich

chips

kung po chicken

egg fried rice

noodles

satay chicken skewers

another fudge cake

2 brownies

more noodles

2 peanut butter and chocolate spread sandwiches

2 satsuamas

a banana

If someone can work out the calories can they leave a comment? Lol it sounds so much doesn't it? It's a little more than normal because I usually don't have a Chinese and something from the Kebab house in the same night :P and mum doesn't normaly let me eat half the cake but she's put on weight and only had one slice. I think since she's getting fatter she can't have a go at me for it, she's not a hypocrite. Good news for me lol.

Bubi again !!

Boys and Girls

Hi everyone,

I had a great day on Tuesday, Brett took me to this really nice cafe for lunch. I've only ever been there a couple of times because it's out of my way, but he used to work there so the manager gave him everything half price :D

I wasn't actually very hungry, I'd had an absoloutley massive breakfast, I swear I almost puked :P so I only had a sandwich a pasty and a muffin. But I had a snickers in my handbag and I nibbled on that too lol. Then he wanted to go for a walk, but the place he wanted to go, it's like 2 miles away!! We cud'v got a taxi but he was still reeling from taking me out to eat all those times this week hehe. I said we should just go back to his place but he didn't want to, he said it was a tip. I don't care, he should know after all he's seen my room, but he kept giving me excuses.

I think he doesn't want me to go there, but I'm not sure why. He told me he lives with some friends but maybe he lives with his parents still. I can understand if he lied I do it all the time when I don't expect to see someone again or think it'll matter. And I don't mind if he does still live with them, I live with mine! But it does worry me that maybe he just doesn't want me to know where he lives. All I know is it's near Sarah. I really like him I don't want him to dump me but he has a history with his ex, the girl he just split up with and I'm worried he might go back to her. I mean he does at least find me attractive enough to make out with me, he's always kissing me and touching me. But his ex is really pretty. He showed me a picture of her and she's got a perfect complection not like mine :( and she's thin. Not stick thin but no more than 10 stone. I don't think Brett has a problem with my weight but if he's anything like a normal guy he'll prefer a skinny girl so I'm a bit worried :(

Anyway we went to my house and made out in my room for about an hour, I'm amazed it didn't turn into sex, but he was either being a gent or I'm right to be suspicious. It's hard to tell without being upfront and I don't want to risk anything by talking.

Jess e-mailed me yesterday, she's split up with her boyfriend A-Fucking-Gain! They're like a couple of squabbling siblings, they love eachother deeply but they fight over the silliest things. As usual she thinks it's the last time, but it's like the 15th so I'm not exactly taking it seriously, I'm just trying to be nice to her and console her like I normally do. She's wasted about £15 on the phone to me as well! You lot would probably like to know she turns to food whenever they split up and this time she's made herself sick on ice cream. She ate two 2 litre boxes in one night, can you believe her? I mean I can't manage that without puking up a major organ so it's no wonder she made herself sick. She can be so stupid some times.

Sarah's split up with George or whatever his name was, he said it wasn't going to work but he didn't give a decent reason he just wouldn't text her back or answer the phone. She's also like that, the last time she broke up with someone she gained a stone, and it's not like she looses the weight like Jess does. She's had 4 boyfriends and they've all added to her dress size. Since she's getting fat anyway I can see her ending up at 15 stone :( It's wierd to think I was that weight not long ago.

Some of you asked about Sarah, well I tell you. She doesn't know about feeders and feedees and foodees and that sort of scene. She wouldn't be intrested either, she's just a normal girl and she wants to be thin and beautiful on the cover of vouge magazine like nearly every other girl in the world. In a way I do too, and so do all my other freinds, but for me I'm happy to be fat, as long as a massive amount of guys want to fuck me. Ultimately I think that's what every woman wants, to have a million guys look at her and say "wow shes hot I wish I could sleep with her" and then a load of ugly girls wish they were her.

It's silly and superficial but I can't help it. If I didn't know how many guys liked fat girls I'd be depressed and think I'm worthless and ugly. I'd be desperate to loose weight and look pretty. I can see why so many women spend millions trying to look good. But it's not just looking good for guys, I want girls wishing they were me. It's stupid that I feel that way. I don't know how to express what I'm trying to say, I guess I'm trying to get accross that all I really want is to be thought of as pretty. And I think that's what all girls want. Silly really I know. I'm probably wrong but it seems that way to me . . .

When I was writing that last bit I got a text from Brett, he says he wants to come round but I'm not in the mood, I used the old headache excuse :P so I might meet him tommorrow. I feel more like eating now than making out anyway, and I'm certainly not in the mood to loose my innocence :P I might have lied before and said I've had sex but I don't do that a lot, in truth I've never had sex and only ever done a bit of kissing. I've touched a guys dick before but it was in his pants so I didn't see it :( but I got my boobs out for him which he enjoyed lol.

It's late, but I think I'm going to have a snack. I've decided I'm having 2 peanut butter and chocolate spread sandwiches, the left over noodles in the fridge with barbeque sauce, a fudge cake, two brownies and some fruit. Oh and there's crisps too and a big bottle of dr pepper in the cereal cupboard so I'll have those too. In case you're American crisps are chips, and chips are fries :P but we invented English (hence the name, duh to the guy who thought England was a place America invaded during the war) over here so it's up to us what things are called! I love America but some of you have been a bit thick when e-mailing me lol :P

Anyway that's quite a lot of food even for me so I'm going to have to make a start if I want to sleep before 2 lol. Night!!

Ali

Sunday (2 Posts!!)

Hiya,

I'm really happy today, I met up with my new boyfriend Brett, he's so sweet :)

I got up about 11 and had an absoloutley HUGE breakfast, I had 4 eggybreads, 6 sausages, 4 rashes of bacon, some mushrooms and then a bowl of cereal and a terry's chocolate orange. I had a lie down for a while and read the first few chapters of the beach. It's quite a good book, not enough food in it though lol! I could never survive without maccy d's and chocolate, I'd go insane :P !

We met in town at 3 and took a look around the shops while we chatted, I was hungry so we had a macdonald's and he paid. I warned him I was going to order a lot and he said it was fine. He had a chicken burger and chips, I had a big mac, a double cheeseburger, 2 fries, a muffin, a donut, an apple pie and a crunchie McFlurry with a sprite and a large strawberry milkshake. He finished and I just carried on eating. I wasn't worried about putting him off because I figured if he's not comfortable with my eating then it's not going to work, but he was fine with it. We were laughing and joking the whole time.

I left nicely stuffed but I wanted to sit down somewhere because I was too full for walking around again. We sat in a cafe but I couldn't resist one of thier muffins :P and we had a hot chocolate each. I felt a little sick afterwards, maybe I ate a little too much lol, but he was still perfectly cool with it. He wanted to go to the cinema but I'd made plans to meet up with Sue and Sarah, and I told him I was too stuffed to get up for a few minutes :P

He just laughed and said 'I bet you are' and suggested we got a taxi back to my place. I just managed the 20 yards to the taxi rank and we went home. I forgot to tidy my room and he laughed when he saw all the junk, including the 3 pizza boxes. I'd told him they were for me and my parents and he asked why they were all in my room. I told him the truth, that I'd eaten all of them and he laughed and congratulated me. He didn't think it could be done :P

I haven't told him anything else yet I don't want to scare him off right away, but we got on the bed and I had my first kiss in about a year (unless you count Jess lol). We made out for a few minutes and he rubbed my stuffed belly. I didn't ask why I just assume he must quite like it. He felt my tits a bit too and tried to get his hand between my legs but I wasn't comfortable with it so I sort of clenched up and he couldn't get his hand between my thighs lol. It felt so nice getting intamte with a guy after so long, I feel so good now :D

Anyway he went home and now I'm going to meet with Sue, Sarah's coming later, and we're going for a few drinks :)

Bubi 4 now

Ali

(I wrote these in word and didn’t have time to post them so this is like two updates about the same day) :)

Hi all,

It was about half 9 and I was still out with Sue and Sarah, I was a tiny bit drunk and and I'd just finished a quater pounder, chicken wrap and chips and I was about to call it a night and go home for some cake, when Brett rang. He asked what I was doing and I told him. I was worried he was going to turn out to be one of those guys who won't leave you alone, the type who rings if you don't text back in 5 minutes and gets worried if you don't call all the time, but luckily he was just seeing if I wanted to meet up :P

I asked what he had in mind and he said there was this Italian restruant he wanted to try, and I told the girls. Sarah was hungry but Sue wanted to go home since she had to go to work in the morning. I wasn't hungry but that's never stopped me right lol?? So Brett booked a table for 3 and we all met there, luckily at the right time. I'm not a good time-keeper but I was lucky today, and Brett seems to be good at it :P

The restraunt was practically empty, just a few couples and this big party who were probably there for mother's day, judging by the old lady who was fast asleep in the corner lol. Oh and to avoid pissing mum off I got her flowers and chocolates.

Brett insisted on paying again, he's such a gentleman, and we ordered. Since I'd already eaten and this was a respectable place I didn't go all out and say "yes please" to the menu :P I just ordered some garlic bread to start and spaghetti and meatballs :) Brett got one of their pepper pizza thingys and Sarah had lasangne and salad.

Sarah doesn't usually get on with my boyfriends, which is fair enough since I rarely get on with hers lol. But they did actually get on great tonight, it was such fun, we were joking all night :) When the bread came it was gone in seconds :P and Sarah did rock paper scissors with me for the last piece lol, I won, not that I need it :P I should have let her have it, she's got a lot of catching up to do to reach my weight.

I let them do the talking while I scoffed down my spaghetti, I made a mess on my new top :$ but I think it'll wash. I noticed my top was riding up, and I couldn't even tuck it in since my jeans were waaay too tight. My flab was pouring over the top of the button and you could see loads of my stretchmarks :S I just had to let it come up and expose my roll. Brett saw it and said 'woah' and asked how I could be that full on just half a bowl. Sarah told him I'd already eaten at the kebab shop. He just laughed anyway. :)

I finished my bowl, then finished Brett's pizza because he couldn't eat all of it. Sarah was really packing it away, and she ordered 2 desserts which is unlike her :P Brett said he was too stuffed to eat any more but said he'd still pay for dessert. I got fudge cake and ice cream and after that I ordered an eclair surrounded by these profitterol thingys. Sarah got the ice cream sunde and the eclair too.

I was so fucking stuffed lol! I couldn't bear it any longer and undid my jeans, my belly just poured out onto my lap. I patted it and pulled my top down over it. I felt ready to burst lol :P

But Sarah suprised me, she kept swallowing to hold it down and was rubbing her stomach. She kept leaning forwards for a moment and then leaning backwards to make herself comfortable. I remember I used to do that, but now when I sit down I'm sort of limited unless the chair's extra big lol. Eventually she sighed and groaned 'uuurrrrrr' and suggested we went home. She looked pretty uncomfortable but she was still happy and smiling lol :D

Brett paid like he said he would, even though it was nearly £60 and we got a taxi to Sarah's. It was nearly midnight and I was going to stay at Sarah's, Brett only lives a few minutes walk away so it suited evereyone :) . In the taxi Sarah undid her belt and we laughed, she had more stretchmarks than me :P I was mostly laughing because I saw her knickers though and they were a silly pink pair with little hearts on them.

I think Brett enjoyed himself most of all, being in a taxi with two overwieght young ladies with thier stomach's packed full of food and their jeans open :D

Do I do too many smilies? Probably :P :D :$ :) hehe...

I just got into her spare bed and slipped into the land of dreams lol. I dreamed I was on holiday in America, I was in a car and I was going to get loads of takeaways, but my dreams always go wierd and all the takeaways I went to all served me the same wierd stuff, like buscuits and chilli dip lol. Anyway that probably had something to do with my digestive system coping with about a pound of cheese :P

I got up this morning and went easy on Sarah's fridge, I didn't want to be rude and eat everything hehe. So I had a bowl of cereal and then got the bus into town and had a macdonald's breakfast. I had the breakfast bun, a sausage and egg mcmuffin, two hash browns, a donut, a muffin and a hot chocolate. I ran out of money or else I'd have gone for more lol :P they just don't do enough at breakfast do they?

Anyway that's it, I've just been eating chocolates and cake in bed all day ;) lol I love my life. I've text Brett but he's working so we might meet tonight. I've pretty much skinted him but he's offered to take me somewhere cheap lol. We might see a film, only problem is I always finish my snacks before the film starts lol. I usually get up twice in the film for food and then more times for the toilet. When you eat most of the day you have to spend a lot of time on the toilet :P. Anyway until then I'm just going to lie in bed eating ;P lol.

Hugs and sloppy kisses,

Ali

On the Pull

Hi Everyone,

For the last month or so since I started this blog I thought about seriously trying to beat my old record of eating. In case you forgot that record is 2 15" pizzas AFTER already having a half pound burger and loads of fries (I did it on a dare). It did take me a while I'll admit but I was eating practiacally non stop for about 2 or 3 hours (I can't remember that well now lol). I drank a lot of lager and I was fairly drunk but I remember it hurt like fuck and I remember clearly that the next morning my stomach really, really hurt.

Anyway I thought I could try and break that because since then I've gained like, I don't know, 5 stone maybe lol :P and I've been eating like a pig so maybe my stomach is bigger. Anyway yesterday my mum gave me a card from my birthday that fell behind the radiator until she cleaned, and it had £50 in it so I figured what the hell, I'd do it with that.

I'd already had another of my whopping breakfasts, I'd eaten 4 eggybreads, 4 sausages, a tin of beans and a few rashes of bacon, and then I had two bowls of crunchy nut corn flakes with a banana in each of them and then 2 peices of toast (jam on one marmalade on the other) before waddling back upstairs and eating another easter egg :P . I was so full I pressed my belly and I could feel my stomach was really hard lol! I did feel a little sick but not as much these days as I used to which I take as a sign that I really do have a bigger stomach :)

So then I thought I should push my limits, maybe it would loosen my stomach more, so while I was still stuffed I went back downstairs and while no one was looking I helped myself to 6 satsumas and 4 bananas and I took a rustlers cheese burger upstairs and a microwaveable chocolate fudgecake.

Just a reminder I have a micrwave in my room :P oh and a mini-fridge!

I had some fruit while the burger microwaved and then had the burger, then I had more fruit while the cake microwaved. I love these cakes, you just put them in for a few minutes and they come out with a lovely spongy cake underneath a thick hot layer of molten fudge :P and the best part is they're huge, they're like 10 inches across and 4 inches deep!!! I looked on the package and they say 597 calories per cake! Not so great for me but I love them anyway lol.

I finished the fruit and then I rested the cake on my lap. I'd locked the door because I'd gotten really hot and my clothes were all tight and uncomfortable so I was stripped naked (bet you all like that image lol), plus I didn't want my mum to come in and see what I was doing, with all the empty containers and wrappers around me. I looked at the cake, and it must be the first time in a very long time, I actually seriously thought "what the fuck am I doing, I really don't want to eat this". My stomach hurt, I mean it REALLY fucking hurt and I wanted to throw up but I dug into the cake and just kept eating. Every time I swallowed my stomach hurt more and more but I was actually getting turned on by the pain. It'd been, well I can't remember but a few weeks since I've cum unless I've done it while drunk, so I only had to rub myself a little to make my sheets wet. I'd nearly finshed the cake when food came rushing up my throat but I held it down by swallowing hard a few times, then I went right back to the cake.

When I finished I was finding it hard to breathe, like my lungs weren't quite big enough. I was sweating all over and my stomach was in total agony, it was swollen and hard but I was so turned on, I fingered myself and came really quickly, I made such a mess :P

Anyway as soon as the pain dulled down I fell right asleep and I didn't wake up until 4 when mum shouted that dinner was ready. I cleaned myself up as much as I could and wobbled downstairs. I forgot to take a bra and my breasts really hurt because they were bouncing on my belly as I went down the stairs. It's probably the first time I've forgotten since I started gaining this year and I'm sure my boobs have gotten bigger. I had a t-shirt on and that's gotten tight but it's not much support lol.

I wasn't hungry but my stomach didn't hurt much so I dug in anyway. Mum made toad in the hole, which if you don't know is when you cook suasages into a sort of dough/pastry stuff and bake it, and then there was mashed potato and veg. I had two helping, I didn't want mum to think I'd been eating all day and I couldn't really make room for more :P but mum was proud of me for not eating until all the dishes were clear. Have a guess what she'd made for pudding? Microwave fucking fudge cake. At least I only had to eat a 3rd of one but she'd brought out the thick cream and I couldn't resist, I love the cold cream on the hot fudge :D

I left the table and my stomach was bulging full again. I don't know if this is normal, but since my belly's started to hang down more, I find it pulls down on my upper belly where my stomach is, so when I stand up the skin pushes back on my stomach. So once I got out of the living room I lifted up my belly lol! I held it in a cradle with my hands as I went upstairs. I was sooo full!

If anyone has a big hanging belly can they do the same thing, stuff themselves and tell me if it helps when you support your belly :) I know it's a wierd thing to ask but I want to know, thank you!!!

I had another lie down and that turned into another sleep until 7 when I was woken because mum accidentally turned up emmerdale's theme tune to 50,000,000 decibles!! I watched a few episodes of the simpsons which I had on tape. I've got the tape "raiders of the lost fridge" and there's an episode where Homer tries to gain to reach 300 pounds (or 350 I can't remember) so he can qualify as disabled. I thought to myself that since loosing weight is almost out of the question, and I can't get a good job without better qualifications, that if I was big enough to be classed as disabled I could just lounge around all day and have someone do my shopping. And since they'd control my diet I wouldn't have to keep getting fatter. Unless, actually I could just call for a pizza or get tesco to deliver a million fattening treats for me lol. But it seems like a nice idea :P

I'm babbling I know I started off this post to tell you about my pizzas, well I'm getting to that.

Sarah called me and said we should meet up, it's a Friday night after all, which I'd forgotten, so Sarah wanted to go on the pull. She was seeing this guy for a few days but he expected her to loose weight so she told him to get fucked and that was that lol! So we're both after guys who like fat girls. Sarah's not too big she's 12 stone, thats er, 168 pounds according to my phone. But Sarah's a liar, so I'd say given the way she's bulging out of her clothes she's 13 or a bit more maybe. I think she's 185 maybe.

We did our usual pup crawl and by 9 I was starving hungry again (after all the booze) and I forgot I was going to have the pizzas so I ordered a mega-kebab and chips and ate that in about 5 minutes lol! Then I got a chicken wrap and we went to find another pub. I got ID'd for the first time since I was 16 and showed the barman my driver's licence and he was happy enough with it he served me. It wasn't that busy for a Friday night, it was raining pretty heavy most of the night so there weren't a lot of people out and we were chatting to him. He was quite fit, 20, blonde hair, but more Sarah's type than mine. His name was George according to his shirt but he had a nickname and I kept forgetting it lol. He was actually intrested in me. He must like fat girls, especially fat girls in tight wet clothes with chilli sauce down their cleavage :P

Sarah went to the toilet and I wispered to him that we were on the pull but he wasn't my type, he seemed to back up saying he wasn't really trying to pull he was just bored lol. I told him Sarah liked him though so he should try his luck. Sure enough we ended up hanging around until 11.30 when he finished (he didn't have to lock up) and we all headed home. Sarah was drunk by now and wanted to go home with him so they got a taxi and I felt like chips so I went back to the kebab shop. That's when I remembered the pizzas as I was looking at the menu. It was a long que, even when it's raining they get busy at chucking out time and there was this guy on his own waiting for an order, he looked a little sad so I figured what the hell. He seemed pretty cute, about my age with a few spots and a nice haircut :P and he was a little chubby which I like.

I asked him why he looked so down and he told me his girlfriend had just dumped him that night and gone off with this other guy. It seemed pretty cruel.

Now, I'm not exactly the brilliant seductress when I'm sober, let alone after 6 pints and a million milli-litres of spirit, but I tried my luck and went up to him, making sure my cleavage was in his full view (he had his head down a bit) and said "well maybe I can make up for that". Fuck knows how but he smiled and pretty soon HE was paying for my one of my pizzas 15". We're talking £15.99 of pizza here, but he's fucking loaded!! His parents are richer than mine!!

I think he was drunk too and I kind of took advantage of him, but I got three pizzas for the price of 2 lol! We swapped numbers and I got a taxi home because it was still raining and I was feeling too lazy to carry all that food home :P!!!

I snuck up to my room, stripped naked again, sat on my bed and started eating! I looked at the clock, 11.56. I savoured every mouthfull and ate slowly, trying to make sure I didn't swallow too much air. I think I still had a little kebab in me so after about a pizza and a half I started to feel full. I forced in more but after just 2 more slices I couldn't swallow, it was just too hard. My mum and dad were in bed so I snuck downstairs and took 2 cans of Fosters from the fridge and went back upstairs. My poor stomach was aching again, especially as I walked naked ;) lol.

I downed a can in a few gulps and almost puked, but pretty soon I was eating again. I just kept going and going and I had a few sips of lager and waited a few minutes before takling the next slice. At 1.13 am I finished the last slice :P I was really, really, REALLY FUCKING STUFFED!!! I couldn't move from the bed without food rushing up my throat and my stomach was really hurting. I just laid on my bed rubbing my stomach. I was sweating and I wanted to be sick, but on the other hand it was rather a turn on again. I couldn't cum; any amount of movement would have made me severely sick. I just laied back patted my tummy and passed out.

All in all Friday was fantastic, I ate tons of great food, I pulled a bloke for Sarah and I pulled a guy for myself, I got £50 of birthday money and my guy brought me a pizza!!! But this morning?

Well after I got the beers I forgot to lock the door again and since I didn't wake up my mum came in to see if I was ok. Luckily I'd gotten under the covers during the night but the room stank of food and sweat and there was 3 empty pizza boxes on the floor, some easter egg boxes, two fudge cake boxes and various other chocolate bar wrappers and crisp packets and microwave burger boxes. My mum had a fucking fit! She thought I'd been eating healthily for the last week or so, or at least just eating what she'd cooked. But my room was a mamouth mess of food containers. I could have explained it away as a few days worth but she'd cleaned my room Thursday night!

She's not done anything about it yet and I've had my usual breakfast and more today, and as I've been writing this I've had 2 easter eggs and loads of chocolate bars. But I'm a little worried she'll do something. I hope she doesn't though. She forgot about the swimming thing even though I'm still traumatised lol!

Anyway, I'm going to get on with lunch, I'm having cheesy pasta, an entire saucepan to myself slurp!!!

Fat Hugs and sloppy chocolate Kisses,

Ali

My Birthday !!! YAY !!! I'm 18 !!!

Hi Everyone!!!!

Sorry I’ve taken so long to talk to you all, I’ve been a bit selfish lol!

I just haven’t had anything much to tell you all for the last couple of weeks, except on Wednesday I turned 18!!!! Also you probably want to know what I weigh, well after my birthday I’ve rounded off at just under 270 pounds :$

Anyway My birthday was ace, I got lots of nice presents, like a new CD player (which sadly I’ll never use since all my songs are on my laptop anyway) lots of money and some nice clothes. My mum got me some really nice clothes that fit but she also got me this really, really, REALLY nice dress but it’s a size 14. She says it’s an incentive to slim down. I don’t know what she’s thinking, on the average diet it’d take until the menopause before I could fit in it!

The best thing about my birthday was all the food and drink! I got totally hammered! And Sue and Sarah didn’t have any idea what to get me for my birthday so they made me a cake :)! And not just any cake, it was a fucking huge chocolate cake with loads of icing and three, count them, THREE layers of cake! Sue handed it to me when she came in the door and it weighed a ton. I’m amazed they got it in the oven lol!

And my mum had already made me a nice cake (she’d made it a little healthier, cut back on the sugar and used marg instead of butter, that sort of thing, and sadly made it smaller :( ) and my nan brought me a cake round!!! She hasn’t seen me since before Christmas I think and she was amazed I’d gotten so big. She doesn’t really care like mum though I mean she’s huge too lol! She’s nice to me anyway.

My mum made pizza on French breads, waffles, salads (because she’s still into healthy eating lol), cheese burgers (because I asked her to as she does really nice ones), and then lots of party food like Doritos and dips and sausage rolls and things.

I ate soooo much! I started off the morning with a full English breakfast which my dad cooked for me, 2 eggybreads, dozens of pancakes (well maybe not dozens lol) and toast and a milkshake!!! I was so full I thought I was going to explode! I had to go lie down in bed again for a bit while I watched a DVD (mum got me Serenity, I’m a geek I watched the TV show :) ). When I felt better I had an Easter egg (I should count, but I’ve taken down the boxes twice and right now there’s 4 boxes and room for a few more so you can probably estimate :$

I showered, got dressed and waddled downstairs again (I waddle now not sure if that’s a sign I’m actually seriously overweight ????) and that’s when Sue and Sarah turned up and gave me their cake!! (Which was the BEST!!!). Then my family started turning up (Oh I got up about 11 and everyone started turning up at about 1.30). We all had a good time, Sue was going to bring her boyfriend but he didn’t want to come, we don’t get on too well. He said once that he doesn’t like Sue going out with me because when we go out we get really hammered and she flirts with other guys. She doesn’t mean it but he won’t believe her. Anyway we’ve never got on since then. So there wasn’t really many people there, just my aunt and uncle, my nan and grampy, my parents (obviously) and Sue and Sarah.

Mum brought in the nibbles at about 2.30 and I don’t think I stopped eating until my memory fizzles out at about 10. Apparently everyone had a slice of cake each except my aunt (she’s a diet freak half the year, pig the other half) and my grampy because he has doctor’s orders (poor old guy :( ), and there was about half of Sue and Sarah’s cake and half of my nan’s left the next morning, so I think I ate about a cake and a half!! I’m surprised I didn’t die of chocolate poisoning!!!!! Sue said we went out for a drink for the night too and all the bar staff at our local were a bit pissed off because I made the mistake of telling them it was my 18^th and I’ve been going there for nearly 2 years :$ . Also apparently Sarah got wasted and puked in a bin (unusual for her), she doesn’t remember it but Sue said she had too much cake, and then she went home. So me and Sue went to the kebab shop and I got a chicken wrap, a burger and something else she can’t remember but it wasn’t chips, I was off those apparently. But I’m never off chips lol!

Anyway it was a great night, I woke up the next morning with a headache, a sore throat, blurry vision, a serious stomach ache, sticky knickers (don’t have a clue why honest), a serious case of the shits (spent about an hour on the toilet that morning :$) and somewhere along the line I’d found a watch. I haven’t got a clue honestly I really hope I didn’t steal it. But It’s not like I was in a state where I could have taken someone’s watch without them noticing is it lol??

I finished what was left of the cakes on Thursday. I’ve just spent the last few days munching Easter eggs and the chocolate bars that go with them. I’ve been taking it easy since my birthday. Maybe its better that I don’t go back how I’ve been the last 2 and a half months. From Christmas to my Birthday and call that a day. But I can’t see that happening can you lol? I haven’t weighed myself since Thursday but I’ll weigh myself and update so you can all see what I weigh.

Thanks for all your e-mails, keep them coming. Sorry I’ve been so long to reply. Oh and I can’t reply if you don’t give me much to go on. And try and remember I’m not a feedee I’m just a big girl who likes her food lol!

Bubi for now!!!

Ali

Mmmm, Pasta

Hiya,

Well I don't really have a lot to say to be honest. I haven't had time to get you your e-mails, sorry, but I promise I'll take care of it this week!!

I've just been snacking and eating all week. It's really weird, before, if I spent all morning eating chocolate and pastries and stuff, I'd be a bit full at lunch and only have one or two helpings, now I just finish whatever is cooked. I made my own pasta on Friday and cooked and entire saucepan full, I mean that's a huge portion and it'd feed about 6 or 7 people. I made it with a full pack of pasta tubes, two tins of chopped tomatoes, a pack of 8 sausages (you fry them first then chop them up and put them in) a big pack of mushrooms, 2 onions and 2 green peppers and some other things. And for the taste I threw in half a jar of mayonaise and half a piece of cheddar (grated first then sprinkled in and you wait for it to melt). Guess who didn't wait for her mum and dad to come home? I ate all of it to myself. I just kept getting up for more of it. I was totally stuffed and eventually my stomach was hurting like fuck but I just wanted more of it. I was even getting turned on so I don't know maybe I really am a feedee??!!??

Anyway I couldn't move for a while after that, I think it took me over an hour because I was into my 3rd episode of malcom in the middle (did anyone see sundays? What is dumber than Reese?? He's so cute, wish he wasn't so skinny lol!!!) so I think it was about an hour and 10 mins or something. My stomach really, really hurt though it was kind of annoying that I felt sick all afternoon. You know that feeling when you want to belch but if you do you're sick?? I had that until dinner at 5 (which I had 3 helpings of lol!!!! I'm soooo greedy!).

Anyway that's about it. I had the ususal Saturday night, lots of booze, lots of takeaways lol! And Sunday was kind of boring again. Monday was just another gorge fest lol! But it's not really worth writing about. Nothing I haven't told you already.

I had a comment in my last entry buy a woman named Angela, she really, really put me off my food. Now when I eat I keep thinking of being 400 pounds and not being able to breathe if I sleep the wrong way!!! I can't imagine that! It must be so horrible! I don't want to get that fat! Probably will though I suppose since I still eat even though I thnik of that! I'm just always fucking hungry! I've eaten a whole easter egg while I was writing this and now I want to go make brunch! I've been up 3 hours, in that time I've had 4 sausages, 4 eggybreads and a tin of spaghetti, two bolws of crunchy nut cornflakes and 2 easter eggs, and I'm not even a little bit full. I'm still hungry!!! How the fuck am I supposed to stop eating if I get so hungry it starts to hurt?? It really fucking pisses me off I don't get it!

Anyway, I'm going to do your e-mails later today! Bubi for now.

Ali

CRAZY!!!

Hiya

I must be honest, it's only recently that I've been eating like I've written about in my blog. I am a pig and I do eat what I like, but since the start of this year I've eaten like there's no tommorow and every day I seem to pack away more and more food. I actually ate EVERYTHING in the house yesterday. I ate all my snacks which was 3 brownies, a muffin and a pack of 4 mars bars, not to mention all my crisps I don't even know how many of those I ate. I had 2 tins of soup out of the cupboard, I had 12 eggybreads (Yes! 12!) and used up all the flour and sugar making pancakes and a cake (which I ate ALL of on my own!). I ate all the bread with sandwiches and toast (and my eggybreads of course), I had all the cocopops and all the shreddies AND all the weetabix. I finished those off with a full 4 pint bottle of milk and whatever was left in the other bottle (which was quite a lot). Then I had the 6 yogerts in the fridge. I ate a tin of buscuits and I had all the good ones out of my mum's quality street. Then I went out before my mum came home and had a go.

I went to macdonalds but I was way too full to manage much so I just had a double cheeseburger, fries and a milkshake. Then I met up with Sue and Sarah and got completeley wasted and ended up buying loads of chips, fish and suasages. Then we got even more drunk and I had a kebab and I remember eating so much I was sick, although to be fair the drink probably helped. I lost Sarah and Sue somewhere along the line but I think they may have been too embarrased to be seen with me.

I got a taxi home and my mum had such a go at me. My dad was pretty pissed off as well. I mean I finished off about £50 worth of food, maybe more, and I didn't even want to, I felt sickeningly full all day but I kept eating and I don't really remember why. My head's clearer today but I can't understand why I ate so much yesterday. I pretty much ate without stopping for the entire day. My stomach has hurt all day from the booze and the vomiting and probably from the abuse I gave it all day yesterday.

I don't know what to do, my eating is uncontrollable. I don't even think I want to do anything, to be honest it felt so amazing having my stomach full to bursting all day and still eating. I don't feel like eating at all today, my stomach is in agony and when I tried to eat some cereal (my mum went shopping, bless her) I felt like I was going to be sick for a few hours (I wasn't luckily!), so I'm going to make this a day to avoid food and see how I feel.

You must all think I'm crazy now, and yeah there's plenty wrong with me but I'm not changing lol.

Bubi for now.