First day

Hi all,

Well, where to start? First day of my new job was excellent!

I woke at 7, too early for me usually but I felt good. I also felt starving. The last thing I'd eaten was a chicken curry, rice and nann bread at about 10 the night before so my stomach was howling. I had 2 bowls of cereal and 4 slices of toast and marmalade, then got into the shower.

When I was at home, the shower had a seat as mum is so heavy she doesn't like standing up, but I don't have one. It wasn't a problem at first as I felt so much lighter but now I feel heavier and it tires me out. It's like a work out and I'm panting right away. I brushed my teeth while I was in there and I had to keep opening my mouth to breathe, so it took me a while to get ready as you can imagine.

I put on my new suit, it's a black knee length skirt and a white shirt with a kinda frilly collar like one of those paper doylies, which exposes down to a bit of my cleavage. I thought about getting a jacket but with summer coming up and the inevitable weight gain I decided not to bother yet. I got them both a size too big as well, just for the staying power lol ;P

I was still hungry so I grabbed my stuff and headed over to the mcdonalds drive through for my first ever drive through breakfast, and ordered 2 sausage and egg mcmuffins, 2 hash browns, a large coke, hot chocolate and a blueberry muffin. I kinda fancied donuts but I've gone off the maccy's ones, I ate 4 a few weeks ago and felt ill, so they just aren't for me atm :S

I parked in the temporary parking and stuffed myself nice and full lol. Sitting down the skirt was snug, so I popped the button and lifted my shirt. It felt so amazing to see my belly full and round, the skin tight. I rubbed it while I sucked up my coke through the straw and noticed some guys walking into the front door pointing at me so I put my cup in the drinks holder, did up my skirt and pulled my seatbelt back on. I swear it's been designed by some skinny fucker! It goes all the way around me but unless I pull it out at the right speed it jams and it can take 2 or 3 goes to get the right length. Nevermind, I'm explaining it badly anyway :P Anyway, I got going again and arrived for work almost half an hour early. The door was locked so I waited in the car for a few minutes, then my boss Mandy turned up early too and let me in.

She went through my duties again and I set about organising stuff to make it easier in the future. I was left with a spare draw so I decided to use my first break to go to the corner shop and fill it with chocolate bars and some quavers :P My desk is in the upstairs office, Mandy has her desk there and we both have computers (no internet on mine :( it's an old windows 2000 from her house). Her husband runs the actual contracting (eg, going out to peoples property and doing the work), and the downstairs is where she keeps the displays for the customers, with a back storage room. She's the sales person so I don't have to meet any customers.

I snacked all morning but by 1 I was just hungry so went back to the drive through for my lunch hour :P haha! This time I had 2 big mac meals, one with sprite and one with banana milkshake, then a double cheeseburger and a crunchie mcflurry to fill me up. I felt stuffed but within 20 minutes my belly felt empty again so I picked up a ham salad sandwich, sausage roll, pork pie and a pack of 2 eclairs with a smoothie to fill me up properly. Once I was back in the car I held the sandwich up to my mouth and realised that I really was still full. I'd just gotten carried away lol ;P all the same I decided to keep eating. By the time I was sliding the last of the eclairs into my mouth my stomach really ached. It's been a long time since I've had a double lunch lol. I don't think it will be long before my stomach is back up to full strength :P haha.

I drove back and as I got out of the car my thighs crushed my belly and I felt the pressure of 2 lunches sooo much that I got a little excited and had to take a moment to rub my tummy better. I thought for a moment about how big my belly could end up, looking at it filling out between my legs, but snapped out of it and headed back up to the office. I had to cradle my belly in my hands as I headed up the stairs to stop it bouncing against my thighs as I was so full it hurt for it to move lol. I can get both hands underneath it easily again now, something I couldn't do before I moved out.

I carried on as normal but Mandy told me to leave early because everything was done. She said there was a delivery coming Friday and she'd show me how to check off the items and store it all. As I headed home it occured to me that she might actually want me to 'file' and 'organise' bloody heavy lumps of stone, wood and metal, so I decided I'd better get a good healthy meal so I rang mum and asked if I could join for dinner. She'd made pork chops and mash with veg. I'm not a big fan of chops but had 3 anyway and so much mash I could barely breathe. She opened a bottle of red and we talked about my day and my dad asked if everything was ok at the flat and all the usual, then mum pointed out that I was 'porking out' again and that I should come over every evening to avoid fast food. I told her not to worry as I'm eating healthily in the evenings. When dad went to wash up she insisted I step on the scales just to make sure I wasn't putting on too much weight. No idea what she thinks 'too much' is but I declined and said I didn't want know, and that I'd keep loosing weight. She insisted that I got my gym membership back, especially now I had the new job because she thought that the constant sitting with all day opportunity to eat was going to be too tempting for me :P wonder why she thinks that. Obviously I can't tell her how I feel about weight and food but I'm loving the way she notices, like, every time I see her haha!

I left a few hours later, hungry again as I wasn't allowed any snacks (not that there are any now I don't live at home) so I went to the chippy for a massive portion of chips and 2 jumbo sausages. Then I went to the video shop and got wrong turn 2, since the first one was hilarious, along with a cookie dough ben and jerry's and a big bag of toffee popcorn.

I put the dvd on and ate the chips and sausages when I got home. After that I ate the ice cream, interspresed with handfulls of popcorn. I was too full to eat any more until the film ended when I took a readymade trifle from the fridge (serves 6, or 1 fat ass) and ate that while I watched my name is earl.

I finished it and fell asleep until around 1, when I went to the toilet. On my way over to bed I had a swig of pepsi and a handful of m&ms then felt right to sleep. Luckily I'd set an alarm so I didn't get up late. My morning was pretty much identical except I decided to take a risk and have a donut, and I didn't really like it :(

Happily I found out that I didn't have to lift anything at work, I had a couple of nice big lads to do it for me lol. It wasn't too hard to sort out but I got a little tired so for lunch I had 2 subway sandwiches, both large, one meatball and cheese and one chicken with salad. They were delicious and pretty filing, but for afters I got 10 sugar coated donuts and a strawberry milkshake from a little shop nearby. The donuts were quite small but I ended up really stuffed anyway :P lol.

Other than that the rest of the day was pretty normal, couldn't be assed to cook so went home for toad in the hole and treacle sponge :) yummy. Then behaved myself and just had chinese for supper. I had chicken chow mein, sweet and sour chicken balls and a large prawn fried rice.

I saw on the local news about some sort of place that helps local fatties loose weight. I was bigger than some of the people on there and my doctor never mentioned it. Maybe it's new. In any case I'm certainly not going to any diet groups or anything like that. It's just so pointless and it'd do my head in :P

I was out with Amiee during the week and some 20 something started chatting her up. Bored out of my mind within minutes of being ignored I logged onto messenger on my phone and no one wanted to talk to me. All I got was a sarcastic 'ooookay', so from now on if you want to chat message me because I'm getting bored of it anyway. In any case the guy brought us both drinks which made up for ignoring me, then Amiee gave him her number. Jason or something, looked a bit scrawny and chavtastic but whatever her tastes are, I'm not one to judge.

Umm, that's about it. I really am going to weigh myself soon! Honest! In fact I'm going to buy a scale from boots :) Then I can keep you all updated. Plus the thought of it is giving me a rush lol.


I'm off now, bubi for now. Hugs and xx's, Ali x x x x x x